I’m not so much upset about it anymore, but I am still trying to come to grips with the fact that now for the rest of my life I need to take medications. EVERY day. The only thing in my life I’ve ever regularly taken before was vitamins!

It is also is hard to accept all the scans and bloodwork I will need. With the lymphoma there is no blood test or scan other than a CT scan, and that you can’t do yearly for obvious reasons.  All you have to go on are symptoms. In some ways it is maddening….”Does that twinge mean I have a metastasizing cancer recurring?”, but in other ways it is comforting because there is no agonizing over waiting for results. I tend to be a basket case about what-ifs, so it will be hard for me to patiently wait to find out if my thyroid cancer is coming back.